How does it feel to be hanging by a thread?

I feel guilty for not blogging much, especially the Food Diary section where I'm supposed to keep track of the food I eat, but haven't been. My days are like an emotional rollercoaster right now, and I could feel myself spiralling down into an abyss of light and darkness at the same time. It's hard to explain, so I won't even try. To keep myself sane, I indulge myself in two of the things close to my heart - music and religion. And no, that's not a contraction, at least not to me.

I know I am fortunate to have people around me, family and friends, and I am grateful. I know a lot of people out there don't have the worldly things that I take for granted, and I am grateful. I know that there is so much hurt, pain and sadness in this world that I couldn't possibly fathom, and I am grateful, because no matter how down I feel, I believe there must be others in situations far worse than I am. And yet, I'm not able to run away from the anxiety and worry that my world is gonna come crashing down.

Please, don't let it crash.