My Hijab

I started wearing the hijab in February this year. That makes it about 9 months of me wearing it! Alhamdulillah. To be honest, I never thought I would wear the hijab. I've always liked trendy and sexy clothings. I loved to flaunt my hair; it was, to me, my best asset. I thought people who wore hijab looked frumpy. It looked very uncomfortable to me, and I'm the sort of person who can't really take the heat. The weather here is generally too hot for my liking - I get really hot really easily. Long sleeves, long pants, a covered head? Those just didn't appeal to me.

Therefore, it was quite a surprise to most people when I started wearing the hijab. Nobody is perfect, but at least I'm one little step closer to becoming a better Muslim. I realised that wearing the hijab is what's right for me. Nobody told me to wear it; I just wanted to. Even my husband was pleasantly surprised. Close friends supported my decision too. After all, it's just my way of dressing that has 'changed', but they know the real me, and I'm still genuinely me.

At first I thought I would feel 'different' or strange stepping out of the house with long sleeves and scarf on my head covering my hair. Many years back, I tried wearing the hijab, and I felt so terribly awkward that I went to the restroom to yank the scarf off. But guess what, this time I didn't feel different at all. No strangeness, no awkwardness (except for checking my hijab a gazillion times to make sure that it's still in place and looking fine). I then realised that if you really want to do something, and if you believe that it is a part of you, then you wouldn't feel awkward at all. Did I feel hot/warm? Definitely. It is still a challenge for me to wear the hijab out in the hot sun. But I accept the challenge with open arms, and try to dress appropriately for the weather.

Just because I'm a 'hijabi' now, that doesn't mean I've stopped wearing makeup or wearing my favourite colours. It doesn't mean I dress in oversized clothes all the time, don't listen to music, and all that. I know a lot of people (Muslim girls) like to judge people based on what they wear etc...but seriously, don't judge anyone. Nobody is perfect, and if anyone thinks they are, they should get a reality check. I might post stuff on fashion or music on this blog, because that's what I like. I might still display older pictures of me without the hijab because that is still me. I might not be 'the perfect hijabi' in your eyes, but I don't care how you see me because all that matters is that God knows me more than you do. So lets have peace and love instead of bashing up other sisters shall we :)